Searching for the cure of bordeum

It’s been two years since I last posted…
Wow! And here I am!
A lot has happened since that day…
But let me just start off by explaining my recent conquests.
Starting with… Yesterday!

Yesterday, June 11, 2009, was my last day of exams.
Which, yes, makes today the FIRST DAY OF SUMMER VACATION! This is the longest summer vacation I’ve ever had, thanks to the school’s scheduling. Next year I will be a senior. Huzzah.
So, after getting out of school yesterday I went home to do some work for Kelsey’s graduation which is June 13 (tomorrow). And I called Emily to ask when I had to meet in downtown Milford to play a jazz band gig, and she said
“where the hell are you? There’s a senior marching band meeting.”
Huh.
I was not informed.
So after bugging my mom to drive me up there we sat down and had a nice long talk with all the marching band seniors.
Blah blah blah, and so on.
Afterwards I went home and got ready for the gig. Then, driving to Milford, it was raining.
So Mr. Green dithered around saying every so often “I’ll cancel in five more minutes, just give me time to think”. That went on for a good 40 minutes.
Finally, Green accepted that we couldn’t play in the rain and told everyone to go home. I liked that idea. I didn’t want my saxophone to get ruined.
Then, no! Wait! Everybody don’t move!
Green decided, all of a sudden, to flip a coin to decide if we were staying or not…
My saxophone better not be ruined, ugh, the rain was so cold.

Afterwards I came home and sulked. Lovely.

A few hours later, around 7, my mom asked me if I wanted to drive to go get chicken for Kelsey’s graduation.
“Sure, as long as we get food on the way”.
Andy came along, same motives as I urging him.
So, the chicken ended up being in BFE, up un Ubly, Michigan.
We drove for 3 hours one way to get this damn chicken.
It was an adventure, though.
We stopped at an A&W, which had people come OUT TO YOU CAR to serve you. And they had TRAYS THAT HUNG FROM YOUR WINDOW!
That’s AWESOME!
So, I was driving down M53 (I think, don’t ever ask me for directions, I stink) and, glancing around, I saw an un-earthly silhouette on the horizon…
As we kept driving, more appeared, and every so often red lights on the top of these towering mysteries would blink…
And then it got dark.
The road carried us RIGHT up next to these towering, 150 ft tall wind-energy windmills!
THEY’RE HUGE.
I swerved down a service road on a whim, and it brought us to the base of one of these goliaths…
There’s an instinct deep down inside that urged me to get out of there and run, these things were so scary and foreign in the dark. And, looking beyond the giant right in front of us, every so often I could see hundreds of red lights blink across the huge flat field they were stationed in…
An army of huge, alien machines.
The sound produced was eerie and sent shivers down your spine; the sound of 50 ft propellers cutting through the wind screeching past…
It was so cool to stand at the base of one.
We scurried back to the safety of our car and carried on our way, trying to find this person’s house (where we were getting the chicken) in the dark. Finally, we found the road, an abandoned-looking horror movie dirt road winding out into the middle of tall grass, a hundred red eyes blinking at you…
Seriously, doesn’t Ubly, Michigan sound like a town where some freak accident/murder/alien abduction would take place?
We drove about two miles through certain danger (pah) to find this girl’s house.
Turns out, she lives on a dairy farm.
So, getting out of our car (and nearly being mauled by her dogs) my mom, Andy and I followed her to her house to get the chicken…
I was so ready to fight back when she pulled out a chainsaw form the nearest shed and came at us.
My mom signed the receipt and Andy and I carried the chicken out to the cooler…
Then the girl allowed us to go pet her family’s cows (one calf I mistook for a deer… Wow, I’m proud of myself).
Then, we thanked her and left.
Around that time it was 10:30.
Before falling asleep on the ride home (I let my momma drive home) I glanced at the alien army one last time and muttered “this better be damn good chicken”.
My mom laughed.
But, in reality, I don’t care if the chicken tastes like the cow pies I stumbled through in the dark.
The adventure we had getting it left a good taste in my mouth :]

I just got back from seeing Pirates 3 for the second time.

:]

Hung out with Heather all day.

Today was a good day.

Summer is only a week or so away...

IT'S ALMOST HERE!

Yes.

Life is getting better.

I'm playing at graduation Sunday.

Doing nothing tomorrow.

And double spacing every line.

Oh, goody goody.

I haven't updated in a month...

Ohhkay. I will just state things I remember then.

I made Wind Ensamble.
It's a pretty good feeling.

I got my Jazz solos down pretty much, Jazz band still sucks 'cause none of my friends are in it. It's a good time to finish homework, though.

The All Night party was pretty schweet. I was up the whole time.
I won the jousting tournetment. Heather and I started a game of tennis ball and it was hella tight (I use dumb words). Did I mention Guitar hero is amazingly fun?

OHIALMOSTFORGOT.

Mercury spill... hahaha. All I have to say is, wow. It was fun. Being with my friends, missing school for about 6 hours, to me withs a good day.

I have nothing to talk/complain about. It kinda makes me sad.

I can't wait 'till marching season starts again.

I have a horrible farmer's tan from soccer.

Hmph. We practiced out in the snow today for soccer. It was bad :\ I think I caught something... I've had a headache ever since practice and I have been sneezing and coughing.

We do not yet know the marching band show theme, But the staff sounds great... thats about enough said there.

I'm and freaking out for chair tests tomorrow, I got it all down w/ the tutor on tuesday... But I don't know if I can pull it off again. It's just playing for Green that sucks.

I have to take a shower... Yah. I havent in a few days. Ew.

I stayed home from school today. I really didn't feel all that bodily sick... It was more more I felt like not dealing with life today. Wich is pathetic, I should have sucked it up and gone. But I didnt.

"I hate that I don't have the ability to make my life sound amazing and make others jealous.
I hate that I say I'm always going to try and I never do.
I hate that I can't look in the mirror and be happy.
I hate that when I try it doesn't pay off.
I hate that I still think about how my ankle affected my life every day.
I hate that I don't believe in myself to think I'm actually going to accomplish my dreams.
I hate that I can't stand up to people when I really want to.
I hate that I feel like I'm a failure.
I hate that I think I don't set a good example.
I hate that feeling when you know people are talking about you behind your back and I still walk away.
I hate that I'm jealous when I have nothing to be jealous about.
I hate the fact that I can't except I'm spoiled.
I hate that I never think I'm doing anything right.
I hate the fact that I don't feel like I have a life."

Crazy thing is, I feel exactly the same way. Except the ankle thing is a wrist thing... but not as bad, I guess.

Soccer sucks. Coach David hates me. I'm sorry I hurt my wrist, I'm sorry I dont pay for all the ridiculous things you insist on paying for, I'm sorry for not being all that amzing at soccer. So there, dang. I called her and tols her I wouldnt be @ practice today and this is how it went:

Coach: "Hello?"
Me: "Hi? Coach David?"
"Yes?"
"I was home sick from school today, so I won't be at practice..."
"Yeah, yeah..."
"I'm sorry."

And then she hung up on me. and... ugh. It makes me feel horrible. I wish I could just have all the talent and money in the world.

Life seems so dreadful and depressing at the moment. It makes me want to hide away and cry for a while.

I think I'll do that.

Yeah. I just got back from the E.R.

I Hyper-exteded my wrist trying to block a shot taken on goal. While playing soccer. BEFORE the game started, during warm-ups.

I am shamed.

I bet itll be fine in a few days, well, better. It might be a colt fraction, which would be in my growth plate, which would not show up on X rays. If it still hurts like it does in a week or so I'll probolly will get a cast.

But that isn't going to happen.

SO, today was a good day other than that. I am now in B lunch (thank god) with most of my friends. It was a lot more fun than C lunch.

:] I'm in a good mood for some reason. Pshaw.

I will now stop typing because my arm hurts. this gay splint makes it hard to move around... thats kinda what its for. dang.

I really hope I can play my saxophone.

Ugh. Kelsey decided to be a bitch today. Maybe its PMS or something, I really dont know. It must be bad though, seeing she had a minor mental breakdown today before school.

I'm not doing AP. All of my friends are, and it makes me feel stupid for not doing it. I know I could do it, and suceed if I really tried, but I don't want to try. I'd rather be average and live my days of youth outside of school and not worrying about the 329498324 page paper due tomorrow. I respect the people who can put up with that, I guess I am not stress tolerant.

Mr. Green blantantly told me I stunk today. bleh, I guess I rather would have had it like that then never be told at all. When I walked into his office he told me to take my music home and practice my Jazz music because I really needed to. I didn't take it home. I have to do other things, like sleep and relax.

I am really an unmotivated loser. I hate myself for it. And yet, I dont do anything to change it. Quote: "unmotivated".

I really wanna do BLAST, that mini-marching band thing. But soccer practice is every day after school, its crazy. I wonder if I could still do it... but practices are every day after school for BLAST too.

I have always known that I want to make a difference in the world. I am not content with living and dying all for not. You only have one life, and I wanna use mine to its greatest potential. I have to break with unmotivated thing and get out there and do something. Start a petition, become and 'Big Sister', do charity work, whatever it is. Its what I wanna do with my life. I want to live my life to help others for the good... totally random right there but I just wanted to say that for a long time.

I dont intend on wasting my life being a bitch,either. More people should repent from their bitchy ways.

It'd make the world a better place.

SO. Mid Terms tomarrow. Whoop-de-doo. I just hope I don't fail... thats all I want. I have never wanted school to end so bad :[ I am a shameless band fag and I crave it like its some sort of illegal substance. Guard show on Saturday. Solo and Ensamble in a week and a half. I need to practice both, but at the same time I want to relax for exams. SO. I will just blow everything off :]

Gah. Chair tests too. I forgot. Dang. I need to prioritize my life.

I'm aiming for 1st chair, but the amazing Donofasa will proboly get it again. Go to wind Ensamble :] You deserve it.

OH. 2 band classes next Semester. Jazz band 1st hour and Symphonic 2nd. I might as well post the rest because I lack anything better to talk about:

1) Jazz band - Green
2) Math - Rice
3) Symphonic Band - Green
4) Civics - -Miller
5) Biology - Perry
6) Intro. to Lit. and Comp. - Piagentini

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Well, I basically have 2 A's.

I hope I know someone is JAzz band... Well basically all the band kids are my homies. Because I say so. Because most of them are nice.

I will save you the pain and end my post now

Hopefully something new and exciting will happen tomarrow (Psh. I will tell you ALL about exams. that should be exciting.)

Peace.

P.S. !!

Channon (My ride home) and I spied on her mom and Mr. Green talking. that was pretty saweet.

OKAY.

Peace again.

Yup. Today is definately a day to remember.

Today I first tasted Horse Raddish. EW. It was the most hanus thing I have ever tasted! I ate it because because today was Passover. We had to eat bitter herbs dipped in salt water too. That was disgusting. Then we had to down 4 glasses of wine. WELL. The food part was not-so-dandy, but the tradition part was pretty neat-o. We had to sing and dance to "pharoh pharoh" hahah. All of this was videotaped. WELL. I cant get into detail about anything or post half what I wanted to because Kelsey want to get on and finsih 'half of her final grade'. Well, Good luck to you kelsey.